A lot of things in my life are in transition: relationship, work, family, and my finances.
I almost am beginning to feel overwhelmed by the sum of these things. Not that I'm about to crack, but I could create a mess if I don't do things each day and get sidetracked on my goals.
Hm…my nearly year-long relationship with my boyfriend is winding down after having realized that we're we can't "fix" or incompatibility. This gets me sad.
Work is getting my lazy and unenthused. I feel as though I'm not compensated properly and I just can't seem to muster up the motivation to get everything done timely. Part of it is my doing, and a lot of it is because I have so many projects to handle. It doesn't help battling with my conscience and my greedy immediate gratification of my boss offering to buy me a macbook pro.
My brother starts his new job today. I'm not worried about him, I'm just worried about not meeting his expectations. We decided to start a small business together on the side. He would deal with all the business and marketing logistics, and I would do the creative side. I've had to draw up some concepts for the new business and discuss them over the weekend, but it didn't happen because of the relationship drama. And, I just wanted to be numb and think about things deeply to sort them out. I've got to take care of my part of the deal soon and follow-through.
I had to do a favour for one of my Photoshop students. I did it half-way…but I haven't delivered the product (I just need to mail it out).
I'm also helping one of my creative directors that I work with on the side pro bono. Helping him optimize his website for search engines. I've had to give him some documents to work from, but I haven't created them yet.
I know a lot of these things seem quite trivial, but whether they're crises or small annoyances, they're all on my mind going round and round. Ugh…